why is it that i sometimes fear obedience? it isn't that i don't desire to be obedient-i think i am sometimes afraid of where that obedience will lead...i guess i pray that God would show me where he would like me to begin moving, and then when doors start opening, i pretend that it is all in my head, and i don't face reality.
what does it mean to be selfless? i realize more and more everyday that i am so far from understanding what sacrifice means...
what does it mean to give up the rights to myself? to surrender fully?
to be so in love with my savior that all else fades to a stale backdrop in light of who HE is?
only by HIS grace
only because HE first loved me
only because of HIS sacrifice

and i can hold firmly to the promise that
"HE who began a good work in me will carry it onto completion..."

for HIS glory