Saturday, September 17, 2005

tapestry

it is amazing isn't it...how life can be going on one minute, and the next-it is radically changed... your views are changed, you can sense that the future as you thought it would be has changed, and it is can be hard to accept...
however, as many of us long for life to go on seamlessly, perfectly, without error, without drama...
do we really long for that?
what is it that makes life beautiful?
i don't think it is the seamless moments, or the lack of difficult circumstances.
without the hard times, without the emotions, without the drama of life
there would be no richness, no depth...
this tapestry of life would be one color, rather than many different circumstances woven together
some painful threads
some joyful threads
some different beyond what we could have ever expected threads
some normal, day to day threads
some threads that can't even neccessarily be seen
and to know that the Master Craftsman's ways are not our ways...nor are His thoughts our thoughts.
no thread is placed without His knowledge
no stitch is made apart from His will
and the tapestry He weaves, though from close up may appear confused and jumbled
when it is finished it is more beautiful
it is stronger
it is ready to accomplish the purpose that it was created for-to bring its Creator, the Master Artist praise and glory for the work that He has done.

Who has measured the waters in the hollow of His hand and marked off the heavens with a span, enclosed the dust of the earth in a measure and weighed the mountains in scales and the hills in a balance?
Who has measured the Spirit of the Lord, or what man shows Him counsel?
Whom did He consult, and who made Him understand?
Who taught Him the path of justice, and taught Him knowledge, and showed Him the way of understanding?...
Do you not know? Do you not hear?
has it not been told you from the beginning? Have you not understood from the foundations of the earth?

IT IS HE who sits above the circle of the earth, and its inhabitants are like grasshoppers; who stretches out the heavens like a curtain, and spreads them like a tent to dwell in;
who brings princes to nothing, and makes the rulers of the earth as emptiness...

to WHOM WILL YOU COMPARE ME that I should be like him? says the Holy One? Lift up your eyes on high and see: who created these?
He who brings out their host by number, calling them all by name, by the greatness of his might, and because He is strong in power not one is missing.
why do you say, O Jacob, and speak, O Israel, "my way is hidden from the Lord, and my right is disregarded by my God"?
HAVE YOU NOT KNOWN??? HAVE YOU NOT HEARD???
The Lord is the everlasting God, the creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength.
even youths grow tired and weary
and young men shall fall exhausted;
but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strenght;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary
they shall walk and not faint.
Isaiah 40

Friday, September 09, 2005

day starting: 3:30 am

Yesterday was unique...
i awoke at 3:28 (actually before my alarm clock, which was set for 3:30) and got ready for my day-showered, dressed, hair done, make-up, time with God, and left at 5am for Rush Hospital. i was helping out with a film shoot for a church nearby. one of my profs had asked in class if anyone would be willing to help, and i jumped at the chance. it was my first experience with filming, and i must say it is fun to walk around downtown chicago with a boom mic, camera gear, and a sign that reads "crowd advisory: by walking in this area you give the consent to appear on film."
from going down the hospital corridor on a gurney holding a camera,
to avoiding the CTA authorities(because we didn't have documented permission) it was quite the experience,
fun
learned
most of all, became even more excited about film/video.

returned to moody about 10:40-
had class from 11-12:15,
work(babysitting in the loop) from 12:30-6:15,
Dr. Easley's inauguration at moody church at 7,
crash in bed at 10,
wake up at 9 friday(today)
go to chapel..
hear Howard Hendricks, an amazing teacher, man of God, he tells to ask ourselves three questions everyday
1)is the Lord well pleased? ...you can be successful in the evang. community and not in the eyes of God-our need for the Lord is not partial-its total...the Christian life is impossible-watch the danger of a misplaced confidence

2)Was the work well done? develop a passion for the gift God has given you...talent is cheap-dedication is costly-how disciplined are you? so many times we are aiming too low, and it is costing too little

3)Is the Word well used? Develop the attitude of a professional who will not settle for second class work...how do i use the word effectively? know it. live it...a lot of Christians are like poor photographs...overexposed, underdeveloped...

eat lunch,
sleep(power nap)
work at 2:30-my child's room,
learning baby furniture, cribs, changing tables, gliders, lots and lots of information,
until 8:30-back in my room
eat dinner
get online
find pictures from my friends wedding (tamara and attila in Hungary)-click here to see pictures!!!!
check email
blog
read
go to bed